Ok, so let me say right off that I do not recommend that anyone do what I am planning to do. I strongly suggest following your Doctors orders.
That being said. Do you ever just get so dang tired of being sick? I’ve always been able to handle 99% of the pain and illness and whatever else this body from hell throws at me. I am a very strong minded person. I figure do what you will to my body but don’t mess with my mind. I will find away around any obstacle you throw at me.
Well, since my surgery on Dec. 30th, I’ve come a very long ways. About a week ago I started being nauseated. I am nauseated as soon as I wake up until the time I can finally fall asleep. I’ve lost over 20lbs in three weeks. Which is awesome if I was actually trying to, but not so good when I’m losing it because I cannot eat.
I was told that the recovery time would be around 6 months for a normal person but because of my conditions it would take 8 -10 months. Now I am not a very patient person when it comes to this. I am use to having surgery and being up and walking the same day or evening. Which I was this time as well much to the nurses dismay, but that’s another story. I was released before the 24 hour mark even hit since the surgery took place, at my request.
I was doing great, but now this nausea. It’s kicking my butt. Today it made me weak minded. I’ve felt like crying all day and a few times I did. Now I’m fed up. Still nauseated but at least I am not being a whiney little sissy mary alice.
I am going to go against Doctors orders. Starting tomorrow I am going to start taking my Grandson for walks. I don’t care if I’m throwing up the entire way. I am going to start doing something every day. It will either land me in the hospital or speed up the recovery time. 8-10 months my ars. I’m not having that. I just can’t sit here and do nothing but “go with it”. Sometimes I just get sick to death of being sick and have to do something, anything, right or wrong.
I see my hepatologist next Thursday so I don’t think I can do to much damage in a week. Ok, ok I know that’s not true. I can really screw myself up. If I think I am doing more harm than good I will cease and desist. ha ha ha.
I refuse to let this crap beat me down. I refuse to let this make me weak of mind.