Do you ever just get tired of being sick?

Ok, so let me say right off that I do not recommend that anyone do what I am planning to do.  I strongly suggest following your Doctors orders.

That being said.  Do you ever just get so dang tired of being sick?   I’ve always been able to handle 99% of the pain and illness and whatever else this body from hell throws at me.  I am a very strong minded person.  I figure do what you will to my body but don’t mess with my mind.  I will find away around any obstacle you throw at me.

Well, since my surgery on Dec. 30th, I’ve come a very long ways.  About a week ago I started being nauseated.  I am nauseated as soon as I wake up until the time I can finally fall asleep.  I’ve lost over 20lbs in three weeks.  Which is awesome if I was actually trying to, but not so good when I’m losing it because I cannot eat.

I was told that the recovery time would be around 6 months for a normal person but because of my conditions it would take 8 -10 months.  Now I am not a very patient person when it comes to this.  I am use to having surgery and being up and walking the same day or evening.  Which I was this time as well much to the nurses dismay, but that’s another story.  I was released before the 24 hour mark even hit since the surgery took place, at my request.

I  was doing great, but now this nausea.  It’s kicking my butt.  Today it made me weak minded.  I’ve felt like crying all day and a few times I did.  Now I’m fed up.  Still nauseated but at least I am not being a whiney little sissy mary alice.

I am going to go against Doctors orders.  Starting tomorrow I am going to start taking my Grandson for walks.  I don’t care if I’m throwing up the entire way.  I am going to start doing something every day.  It will either land me in the hospital or speed up the recovery time.  8-10 months my ars.  I’m not having that.  I just can’t sit here and do nothing but “go with it”.    Sometimes I just get sick to death of being sick and have to do something, anything, right or wrong.

I see my hepatologist next Thursday so I don’t think I can do to much damage in a week.  Ok, ok I know that’s not true.  I can really screw myself up.  If I think I am doing more harm than good I will cease and desist.  ha ha ha.

I refuse to let this crap beat me down.  I refuse to let this make me weak of mind.


3 thoughts on “Do you ever just get tired of being sick?

  1. First of all I apologize for not writing sooner. I’ve been very neglectful of my blog.

    Second, thank you both for the information and the tips. I will definitely be using them. I hope that you are both doing well.

    I am also a very firm believer in prayer. I will keep you both in my prayers as well. Please stay in touch and let me know how you are doing.


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